I Have a Dream....

"If you wanna be somebody,if you wanna go somewhere,you better wake up and pay attention"
-Sister Act II

For all the people who have read this blog, you probably know that my biggest dream is to be part of the choir. Wednesday was the shittiest day if the week for me. I quit SIGLO. Althroughout Music that day I was so glum. Finally Teacher B. asked me why. She said "Will you not be able to attend this afternoon?" I didn't answer her. At the end of Music period, she asked me to sit down after the whole class left the room. She said again "What's the problem?"

All I could respond was : "Kasi po ma'am..."

That was all I had to say. My voice was shaking.

She looked at me and said : "You're quitting?"

I couldn't look her in the eye. If I did I knew the tears would fall.

"Ma'am yes." (as in iiyak na talaga 'ko!)

"Why?"

"Ma'am, kasi po kailangan ko pong mag-adjust..."

***and the rest is not important...***

I said sorry and walked out of teh Music Room, looking at my name on the SIGLO list outside...and walking away.

If you've read this blog...you'd know that my weakest subject is Maths. Geometry is something we didn't take up in PSB.

It is so funny how Maths always ruins my life huh? I didn't fail Math YET. That's why I made a "decision" early.So as to pass this sem. It wasn't really a decision I wanted to make. It was something I had to do.

I have a dream...that is to be oart of the choir. I achieved it...and it shattered right before my eyes. DAMN! Third year is so hard! Soooo HARRRRD! Sometimes I just think to myself..."Gawd! Cut me some slack!" Do you know what it is like to have a DREAM?

Mass sucked today. SIGLO led the mass in choir. All mass long I thought to myself : "I am not supposed to be sitting next to MM rigth now, I'm supposd to be up there!...singing!"

I have "adjust" and get back next sem. I just have to!!!!!!! I will...I will but my ass to be able to be back next sem! In the meantime...Gawd! I am sooo pissed! Pissed! PISSED! WWWWWAAAAHHH!!!